| #125 : I Missed Time |
[30 November 2009 | 04:30pm] |
This is weird. All I did was watch a video starring you and I realised how much I wanted to go back thereeeee (& how much you've changed but I bet no one realised, they don't know you). It's not you, it's not anything. Maybe because you were the only friend I had.
Seriously, all I want is the end of days. Not that I'm taking the Rapture lightly or anything like that, I'm just really exhausted.
The A's are stupid, still deeply disturbed by how I screwed Chem MCQs.
& TAMILAI I DREAMT I WAS ANGRY @ YOU TOO.
IT WAS QUITE FRIGGING FUNNY.
I FELL OFF THE 4TH FLOOR OF MY PRI SCH BUILDING
STOOD UP RIGHTAWAY & HATED YOU.
MAYBE YOU PUSHED ME. :DDD
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| #124 : Strictly No Studying |
[01 November 2009 | 01:34pm] |
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I can't believe the As are in a week or so and yet what I'm most concerned about is finding somewhere to mug. As in, looking for a new place to mug is of greater urgency than the act of mugging itself.
This would not have been an issue at all if grouchy grumpy adults would quit complaining about the lack of seats at Starbucks. There was this man at Starbucks and his exact words were "I hate students!". If I weren't in my uniform, I'd probably have told that guy that hate is a very strong (and very immature) word to use. The Starbucks barista (no, not that one) was a good soul and told him that he would understand since he was once a student. That guy just went "I was never like that, I hate them." Okay man, we heard you the first time.
Adults, we DO not want to hog the tables at Starbucks. Schools do not provide environments conducive (or air-conditioned) enough and we will sleep our days away at home. Public libraries are REALLY noisy. Okay, so people chat over coffee at Starbucks. But no earplugs, Dr. Dre headphones will filter out or even muffle the screams of young children.
Why would anyone enjoy mugging? Why would anyone fancy sitting on the same chair, in the same position for 12 hours straight? Do you not think we feel embarrassed? Do you not think we feel ashamed? We don't like feeling like freeloaders on a premise like that. We do recognise that Starbucks is a profit-maximising firm and we know its corporate objectives - definitely not to cultivate a nation of straight As students.
We don't have much of a choice here. We already hate our lives as it is (because, believe it or not, mugging is pretty tough these days). So try being kinder and nicer as we fight for our own future as well as the nation's future GDP growth. Leave us alone and come back next month or something. OR get a takeaway.
It's that simple yeah.
In other news:
The love-of-my-life is moving away. I know I had so many, I don't know how to number this one. I shouldn't feel too sad, we come from different planets plus I'm bored alreadyyy. Heh.
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| #123 : Was I Too Close For Comfort |
[19 October 2009 | 01:47am] |
taken from the Fbook group of S03C
30. Tyres are a gauge of your fatigue.
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64. You get freaked out by polaroids.
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73. Your Economics teacher tells you that the difference between Man Utd and Arsenal jerseys, is that the former is a luxury good and the latter, inferior.
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Good times & I nearly forgot. & I realised all the photos, the ones we really look awful in, the ones that caught us unprepared, the ones that TZ deliberately screw up, are those that really make me laugh.
Plus I keep falling asleep. I feel like a loser.
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| #122 : I Will Run The Race Till I See Your Face |
[18 October 2009 | 12:51am] |
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I find it odd.
The way we covet things we can't get, people we can't hold, memories we can't Xerox.
We chase after anything unrealistic, anyone superior, running away from everything, everyone we already have.
I don't know. Maybe we just like the kick of struggling, fighting so hard to get to something.
But when your eyes fixate on what lies ahead, your hands loosen their grasp on what little you actually have.
Again, tt doesn't matter since we all leave this world empty-handed anyway.
Anyway, I haven't been happy in a long time (though Farewell Assembly and group meals have been much <33) because Math is evil. Pure evil. Math is anti-matter.
Still, a lot of things to be grateful for. God's grace, classmates, a very honourable Facebook friend and a new friend at the coffee place. Okay, I know I said I am OVER it but when your head's threatening to explode from the information overload, a megawatt smile helps.
"Will I be seeing you tomorrow?"
Ahhh. So cute right Tami!!!!!
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| #121 : KICK MY ASS and I won't even notice |
[14 October 2009 | 11:40pm] |
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You really can't imagine how fearful I am of the As.
Suddenly, nothing is funny anymore.
Even seeing people who usually make you happy don't matter anymore. Particularly if you don't want to find yourself turning out like they do.
Is it too late to ask for a future?
I REALLY SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER.
Math oh mathh.
I don't dare sleep. )):
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| #120 : Coffee Country Club |
[13 October 2009 | 03:25pm] |
I'm such an entrepreneur. I'm sure CCC will be a hit. OMG damn sick of Math, mugging and Macchiatos. Days without Bar Is Starr are boring and shizzy. I can't concentrate.
See! This is why my business will flourish. I already know.
& it's going to be halal.
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| #118 : I'm So Tired. |
[08 October 2009 | 07:21am] |
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I really wanted to post something.
Then it occurred to me that I'm too tired to even think.
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| #117 : & I Never Meant to Hurt You When I Wrote You 10 Love Songs |
[03 October 2009 | 11:34am] |
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OMG HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Okay, a thought just popped into my head after I found out someone I knew was contesting in a beauty pageant. It didn't come as a shock, I was just pleasantly surprised. Tami ought to be really interested in this particular contest.
I need to find out where all my money has gone to (Yes, classmates I can vaguely hear you guys chiming in unison: CAB FARES) but I haven't taken a taxi in the longest time. I swear. Seriously, it's been at least a week since I last stepped into one.
Anyway I think it's Starbucks that's been squeezing me dry. It's okay since Green Tea Lattes make me happy. Plus I really mug super hard there for 3 reasons.
1. Since I would have spent like 6bucks there, I have to utilise my time there well.
2. OMG, there are super a lot of JC students there and they all look smarter than me. I see them doing Math and they are always furiously punching numbers into the GC while I take like 15minutes for 1 question.
3. I am pretentious.
BTW, Tami really ought to be TEACHING H3 sex after what she told me last night. I see her in a new light now. Go give Cheryl and TZ remedial lessons (I hope that doesn't sound too sick)
OMG. I screwed Prelims like crazy. Okay, will mug soon. Like afterwards soon.
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| #116 : Exchanging The Common Heart for the Salt of the Sea |
[02 October 2009 | 06:27am] |
You're like a joke, next to him.
Get a grip on yourself.
There are so many things so much more important than what's on your mind.
(I would tell you that if you let me
Or if I knew you)
LIKE THE FREAKING As
& I need need need X 100 000 000 my ITunes NAOOOWWWW.
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| #115 : The Note Is C Flat and G Sharp |
[01 October 2009 | 09:01am] |
OMG I actually understand AP/GP! I always thought it was super tough and hard but I realised it's because I had a witch for J1 Math. Yay.
Still, I might be the greatest idiot in the world. I came home at sixish in the evening after mugging at Starbucks yesterday. I was going to get changed so I could go for a run then I felt the ground shake. NEVER did it occur to me that we were experiencing tremors from an earthquake, instead I thought it was the beginning of a migraine attack and went to pop some pills instead.
Man, I am so stupid sometimes.
/note: I need, need, need my Itunes back. )):
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| #112 : I'm Really A Waste of Space. |
[17 September 2009 | 08:20am] |
Did you know...
#1. You can donate money to the charity organisation of your choice at the AXS station in school. The machine would even print for you a receipt with the full details of your donation.
#2. Kok Yuling is a freaking failure.
Bye. Neil Gaiman cheers me up.
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| #111 : I'm Going to Die in the Hands of Biology ((: |
[15 September 2009 | 06:12am] |
: Can you please put your hairband on your head? It's so stupid, it looks like a freeeeaking fake stethoscope
: You and I, we obviously share a generation gap.
Ayeee. Sisters.
Now whenever I see your face, I just want to slap you silly. I can't explain why either, you bring out the screaming devil inside of me. I wished I could be gracious, I really do. Truth is, I just want you getting what you deserve (which is quite a bit) and I know I shouldn't be building joy on your misery but at the same time, it feels good to do so. I'm just so glad it was you. You really need to learn a lesson (or maybe like a million more)
Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned
Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned
(I think Congreve thought of me a lot)
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| #110 : FATFOODBOY MUST STOP. |
[13 September 2009 | 01:03am] |
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I really despise myself for some choices I make in life.
(I like Jason Wu's SS10 but let's wait for ALEXANDERWANG)
LEOWZHIXIAN'S EPIC MOMENT
[talks about the Peranakan people and the culture]
: Mashimaro's Peranakan.
(Gladys and Yijie smile knowingly)
: ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS?!!
: Yeah, I am.
: OMG, HAHAHAHAHA.
: Aye, wait. I'm not talking about the real Mashimaro you know.
(Funniest look I've ever seen on LZX. Plus everyone was already roaring with laughter)
Ah. I apologise if this blog sounds like a three year old's incoherent speech. I've been hanging out with some friends who have been reduced to the mental age of toddlers. I think studying has a way of getting to you. It eats into your sanity and makes you laugh at the slightest hint of humour. It makes you think of stupid things and cry to sleep. It puts you in this permanent phase of "balloon-headedness". I HATE MUGGING.
Oh boy, I really want to study in England. Stepping foot on Anfield, walking in Wellingtons, Waitrose supermarkets, don't they sound convincing?
I'm too dumb and I still hate mugging.
Oh Fairy Godmother, where are you? Can you turn back time and let me stay little forever?
Quote of the day : THE PRELIMS ARE NEARLY OVER LeowZhixian
I wish it was so, Xian. I wish indeed.
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| #109 : She Grew Up Eating Charcoal. Hah. |
[12 September 2009 | 01:21am] |
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#1. Spring / Summer 2010 and I haven't seen a bit
#2. Supernatural Season 5 and I am in absolute control of my actions
#3. Same goes for J&K+8
Of course today was another awesome day.
I stayed back in school till pretty late together with Yijie, Gladys and Amanda. Mugging eats at your sanity, somewhere round 9pm, Gladys and I were walking the perimeter of the school, reading notes aloud. My crazy, "I-live-in-my-own-world-and-you-are-just-another-judgemental-loser" friends really make feel damn right good. I don't know. Maybe it's the way we all share the same misaligned humour, or our selflessness in entertaining one another.
I'm healthy, blessed and damn dead for the prelims. I am happy and nothing takes that away. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past. And sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did, but for the things we didn't do. Things we didn't say, that could have saved someone we care about, especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way.One Tree Hill
I <3 you friends.
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| #108 : Cause I'm Going Wherever You're Going |
[09 September 2009 | 11:51pm] |
I am very happy today for several reasons.
#1. I found my Chem file. Alright, actually Mr. Chong found it and I'm so very thankful. He was very nice with his words and I promise I am never ever going to leave it around. I'm going to get it back on Friday and I feel so blessed and happy.
#2. I'm made even happier by the people around me because everyone was so genuinely happy for me, it truly comforted me. I'm really happy to feel so loved. It mattered to me that it mattered to them. Thank you friends.
#3. Lunch today was awesome. It was funny awesome. What did I do to deserve such lovely people and such good fun? Post-mugging talk with Gladys and Anzie was wonderful too. Anzie was her kind understanding self as usual. Gladys, I don't think I appreciate her enough. I'm going to confess to her tomorrow.
#4. I really got over it. I was surprised at how it happened in a snap but it's really over. (Mostly because I realised you are not the one I facebook-stalk in the middle of the night, you don't even have facebook. You're just a decoy.)
I complain a lot. Today's humidity was getting to me, the track was out of bounds again, I got irritated by strangers, Math was a hell of an annoyance (what's new?). Today I laughed so much, I thought about the stupid things we did last year and I laughed. Some time next year, I'll look back today and laugh just as heartily.
I really am so very blessed. I am so touched and happy and I have every reason in the world to be. Just as Des quoted her friend, "When life gives you lemons, throw it back and tell them you want limes instead."
Worship & Praise Song of the Week:
Day By Day - Point of Grace
Somebody told me I could travel the world
To find beauty
To find beauty
But to behold it I would have to carry it within me
Yeah well it's in me
Cause day by day you're coming closer
Making our way clearer and straighter
Turning our faces into the light
And I can't wait to fall at your glory
On my face, God of the morning
You're coming closer
Day by day
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| #107 : Incoherent Post Because I'm Falling Asleep Again. Surprise, Surprise. |
[08 September 2009 | 01:28am] |
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- Markers are dumb. They should be made sensitive, only inking on paper and only when you want to. I fell asleep with a cyan marker in my hand and now the entire bedsheet looks like a bad tie-dye job.
- I must stop picking at my scab. It's really hard to resist. The fear of scarring (amongst my many other scars) barely overrides the thrill of pulling out that dead piece of skin.
- All I really want to eat these days is porridge. Porridge of Cantonese origin, with all sorts of ingredients.
- And I'm starting to wonder where all my money went to.
- I'm appalled by my attitude at tuition today. I was not doing anything, just hearing, barely listening or registering anything.
- The reason for my bad attitude above (feeling nothing but guilt towards Mr. Chong) is because I'm so NOT a "Let's cram my head with Chem after 3.5 hours of disturbed sleep and a 20odd bucks cab ride later" kind of person.
- Friday's lesson is at 9 am, I'm convinced I'll feel the same way.
- I watched 2 hours worth of Disney Channel today. I'm regressing into Zah.
- That sticky date walnut slice at Starbucks is bad. It's really bad. Please don't try it.
- Starbucks is SUPER crowded. I don't like it anymore.
- I really want to go to Kinokuniya, Muji, Canele, Toast, anywhere away from this hell-hole.
- Actually I just don't want to mug.
AND SO BEHIND TIME.
I'm going to find some quiet corner in the library to mug, away from ALL sorts of distraction, friends and foes alike. If I dye my hair like purple, will I still need to take my As?
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[07 September 2009 | 03:51pm] |
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This is too unbecoming . I fell asleep mugging at Starbucks.. I was very sleepy during Mr Chong's lessons. Must lift those eyelids.
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